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confusion

"An assumption developed that you cannot understand life and live life simultaneously...
I would say that life understood is life lived. But, the paradoxes bug me,
and I can learn to love and make love to the paradoxes that bug me,
and on really romantic evenings of self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion."

-Speed Levitch, Waking Life

it's weird how the older i get the more confused i am about a lot of things — a lot of paradoxes that couldn't be solved, no matter how often and how hard i thought about them... but mostly, the main thing that bother me is this continuous, persistent feeling of always being a stranger who just kinda float along a random road each time.

i guess it is dangerous to base your decisions on relative truths, cuz they don't really help you get to any conclusion... you just get more confused... which is exactly why i think people need an absolute in their lives... and to me, that absolute is God, who provides me with both purpose and hope... purpose, so that i know where i'm going and why (this is useful at times when i feel everything is meaningless); and hope, so that i can go on... well, it's true, there are times when my confusion is greater than my faith, but i am working on it... the problem would be when i stop.

Comments

Our confusion is what i like to think as "work in progress". The doubts that we may have, keep us in a state of mind in wich we´ll remain till we understand what is going on and why. It´s a kind of "friend" that helps us grow, learn, understand our innerself as well as our actions in the outter-world . The faith...i have faith in me. My confusion...it will lead me to my answers. And the meaningless of world is defeated with meaningful of our prespective.

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